Neglected!

Why is it that the more you do for others ...the more they take! I just feel that I always try to be there for others and do as much as I can to make their life easier...but I never get nothing in return...not even a thank you! Now don't think I am expecting much...but hey if I need you ...give me the courtesy of being there for me! I mean ..I have so many friends that say I am too nice..and you think that would mean that they would actually be there for me..but nope. I have a husband whom I bend over backwards for, and don't get me wrong...I love him, but when it comes to being there for me...nope...not unless it's something that he "wants" to do. I guess I am just tired of overloading myself to make others happy...and getting nothing in return.

~~~Crystal~~~

Excited but also sad!

I feel like I have finally won at something! The Attorney General decided that my ex would have to pay child support. He hasn't helped out with her in at least six months, so this is definitly a relief! However, now that he has found this out he won't pay me any of the money he owes me for the past six months...but oh well...like he would of anyways!

Anyway, I was feeling so good that finally something was being done about her dead beat father and then she came home from his house. She didn't want to come. I don't blame her in a way. He hardly ever comes to get her, so when he does she is afraid for him to leave...she has no idea when he will come back. She expressed last night that she would of rather stayed with him then go on our upcoming vacation. This hurt me tremendously! I know that when she grows up she will know and realize everything he did and didn't do. It just hurts because my husband and I work our butts off to give her a good stable home, and now a great vacation...and she doesn't even see it. I just wish she could see how hard we work to give her a stable life. I mean at times it hasn't been easy! Her father lives on someone's couch and only spoilers her when it is convenient. I just wish she knew how much we fought for her, how hard we work to give her all the things she needs and wants! I pray that one day she will realize that we may not be able to spoil her like her father, but we provided stability and unconditional love like she needed!

~Crys~

Pretty damn good day at work..

Man what can I say...today started off bad ..but ended up pretty damn good!

I not only spilt coffee all over my truck, took a wrong turn and then burnt myself on the way to work...but then the day ended up pretty good. After my meeting with the VP of Operations my boss wants to go to lunch...which wasn't unusual. We met a client and was just going to have lunch ...but realized that the US Open was on and ended up watching it all afternoon. After such a bad morning, spending five hours watching the final rounds of the US Open and drinking quite a few beers was such a great way to spend the day!

So after such a great day...the only thing that could top it is if my husband was home from work...but I still got a couple hours for that. Anyway, just had to share a really good Monday with everyone.

~Crys

Photography

I am returning to my love...photography! I have been editing photo's and remembered how much I love taking pictures. I will start posting some here as well as on my myspace page.

For a short time, I will be doing free sessions so I can continue to build my portfolio. If you are interested in a free session please post a comment with your contact info or you can message me on my myspace (www.myspace.com/rcsmck).

I look forward to hearing from you!

Just venting a little...

This happened about a month ago...but is still fresh on my mind...

My husband went and saw a mutual friend of ours for lunch one day. Now neither of us had met his new wife. A few weeks before Robert met them for lunch I had e-mailed them on their myspace just saying that I couldn't wait to meet his wife and that we should all get together soon. At lunch the wife says to Robert "We should get together so I can meet your wife, so she will stop e-mailing us on myspace about meeting me". I had only emailed her once. I was just trying to be nice so that she wouldn't feel left out since the rest of us have known each other for years. It really hurt my feelings. I went out of my way to make sure she knew that we wanted to meet her and get to know each other. She has never met me and now she says this to my husband. I felt that it was a rude and unnecessary comment. Now that they are actually talking about getting together I don't even want to.

What do you think? Do you think it was rude or should I just blow it off and go hang out like nothing ever happened?

~Crys

Mothers Day!

I would have to say that this Mother's Day has been the best so far!

Robert and the kids cooked me breakfast in bed and they (he) got me a dozen yellow roses. It was the sweetest thing seeing all of my kids carrying my plate, coffee, and roses into the bedroom!

Thanks for such a wonderful thoughtful Mother's day!

xoxoxo
Crystal

just another day and another update...

Well everything is going pretty well! We just had Sydney's birthday ...so two down ..two more to go!!! We had her birthday party at the roller rink and it was a blast! She got to to into the money box, which was pretty exciting for her. Overall it was a good turnout! Her uncle Joe and his fiance Stephanie came. I was a little worried if there would be tension, but I have to say it was nice! They were really nice and it was good for Sydney...it really made her week! Even Robert asked if I told Joe to be nice ...lol (which I didn't). I told him that is just how he is.

On another note, Sydney's father hasn't came to see her in four weeks. She has stopped asking when he was coming. I don't have a number for him and he hasn't called. I just wonder what she is thinking and feeling right now. I am contemplating putting her in counsling to help her through all of this. He wouldn't tell me when he was leaving for boot camp so I called the recruiter myself and he never even signed up. That really ticked me off. He puts every one through so much and doesn't think about how his lies may or may not effect his daughter. I am just done with him. Since he hasn't been around she has been much better and listens better...which is good.

Robert and I are still doing great! This year has been the best out of all of the years we have been together! Our third wedding anniversary is this month...and I can't wait! Then in July we will have been together five years...boy have they flown by! So all is good, and I have God to thank for that!

Anyway, until next time...have a good one!
Crystal

hurting for my oldest...

I am hurting for my oldest daughter. Last week her father failed to pick her up from school on Thursday because he was out of town (or so I am told he was), he just left her there...didn't even ask me to pick her up. Then this week is his week to see her, and guess what...just left her there again. He leaves her up there w/o warning so she is there until 6:30 or later...when they call and notify me. It just hurts me that he would do this to her just to get back at me. The sad thing is ..is that she says "I knew he wasn't coming". She knows how he is and expects it...and that has to hurt her. I just wonder what kind of "father" does this to his child. I know he is doing it because we are going through a custody battle/child support battle...but if he really cared about her how could he treat her this way.

I pray that she will not be effected by this, but I know that is not possible. Please keep her in your prayers!

What a great weekend!

What can I say...this weekend was perfect! Now I know to some of you it might sound boring...but it was great! Friday night the grandparents took the kids and Robert and I got a quiet night alone. It was nice....just staying home sitting around having few beers and hanging out. Saturday we tried to take the kids to get their pictures done along with their cousins...now that was a nightmare! Let me tell you ...six kids will never all sit still at once! Most of the rest of the weekend we just hung outside and played with the kids. Sunday I went and bought them water guns and we had so much watching them chase each other, and playing in the water with them! It was just the perfect weekend! I am so lucky to have such a great husband and great kids!

p.s.
Robert took me on a ride on his motorcycle....I LOVED IT! I think I like that bike as much as he does...lol.

So relieved!

Well the mess that I had been so stressed out about has finally been dropped. Words can not express how relieved Robert and I am! The entire situation was just taking a toll on us emotionally.

Anyway, now we are having to battle with Sydney's dad. This is very sad because he just wants what is best for himself, not for her! This has been a battle for years now, but now we are putting a stop to it and probably going to spend a ton of money in court to put an end to it. I hate that it had to come to this, but he is a very unstable man.

On another note, Robert and I are doing great! We are planning our first family vacation with the entire "Kennedy Klan"! I think we are going to the beach...but it has yet to be confirmed. I am really looking forward to it! When Robert and I went to San Diego it was extremly nice and well needed, but we missed the kids and thought about them the entire time. We just can't wait to see the kids building sand castles and playing on the beach all day!

Easter weekend

This weekend was great...but really long! Friday I spent the day with Sydney and Madison for some quality time. I took them shopping and thought it would be nice to let them pick out their own Easter dresses. This was probably not the best idea....we went to four stores before they both picked one out! We then went and had a great lunch with the grandparents. I had wanted to take them to paint pottery and have it fired...but we ran out of time (this was the one thing I really wanted to do with them), oh well I guess we can save it for a rainy day.

Saturday everything just went wrong...lol. We were suppose to take the kids to a good friends son's b-day party and then get the kids pictures done. Neither happened. This is why I don't make plans. My brother decided at the last minute to come into town, which was nice. He wanted to drive over and see Robert's truck...so we met him in Allen had lunch and then let the kids look at the truck and stuff. Then by the time we all loaded up (two adults & six kids) and got back to the house...Robert called and asked if when we were suppose to be leaving for the b-day party. By this time the party had already been going to 30 minutes so there was absolutely no way we would of made it there before it was over.

Sunday, again planned on going to church....but....Sydney had a stomach bug and needless to say "got sick" all down the hall and in the bathroom. She was fine later by the time we had lunch and hunted Easter eggs. The kids hunting the eggs were the best part of the entire weekend! Cagen finally caught on and when his basket got to full the eggs started falling out....and Maddie would just follow him and pick them up!

Even though every single thing we had planned didn't happen, it was a really great Easter!

so worried

We got some bad news on Wednesday (I won't go into details, it is really private) and I think this is the most worried I have ever been in my entire life! Just the other day I was thanking God on here for my wonderful family and now it could all be torn apart. It is one thing to have to deal with something that you can help or deal with consequences...but when it is something completely out of your control it is so hard. I am trying to be strong for my family, but it's hard. I know that they feel just as worried as I am, if not worse. Please just pray for our family and keep us in your thoughts. I will update any news that I have ...but probably won't be until Monday.

First blog

Well I really wanted to keep this blog to keep our friends and family updated. It seems like our life is flying by and there is to much happening on a daily basis and it's impossible to call each person and tell them. Anyway, so if ya want to know...read on..lol.

It seems like ever since Robert and I went to San Diego I want to spend more quality time with the kids. This morning we got up and were all dancing around to the music and had breakfast together. I am really lucky to have four healthy kids...and I try to remember that when they stress me out. Raegan is about to start crawling...but I think she has found another way to get around. I have noticed that since we got hard wood floors she just pulls herself around..lol....it is so cute though! Cagen asked to use the poddy yesterday...which was a complete shock since neither Robert or I have really pushed the subject on him. He didn't go ...but he tried. Sydney and Madison are the same old little sneaky girls..lol. They are both getting so big way to fast!

Anyway, that is all for now....have a wonderful day!